it pulls me down again influenced by existence canalised by my past this darkness consumes my present, everyday i breathe, it breathes with me i awe at its depth awaken to a different beat sometimes, i let her take me for hours i grief in this despair a place that is secondary it is from this nature i emerge renewed. nk. 17/6/17
promises broken tendons torn love locked in layers of pretence 20 years preserved love locked in preservation 20 years adorned to this fractured heart disposable to many indisputably yours. nk 11/6/17
tender beats of shadows of my past of hearts distant to my touch presence is of the ether of a world unknown to this sun i sing your name to the stars i see your warmth in the winds i lay desolate of this reality nk 7/6/17
this loss distance separates us from elements of reality broken fragmented living love engulfs darkness enlightens my soul free from hunger distance binds us in light nk 1/6/17
decapitated by this desire involved illusionist your depth is transparent to my touch devastation dissolves the death of love lies of love words caress my denial holding a hostage of my heart nk 28/4/2017
dusting decades off a photograph the single of you keeping this love alive it is my truth your absence is not noticed red thread bounded in dna time is a harlequin to my blood nk. 17.4.17
undulating accommodating nerves sweep through distant silent aching in repeat in defeat to the ode that defies realism distort this death to your distance nk. 05/04/2017
WAITING FOR YOU TO SAY THE RIGHT WORDS TO ME CAKE ME IN LIES AGAIN FOREVER-I HEARD YOU SAY FOREVER-MY MIND PLAYS GAMES IM IN DOUBT LIKE GLITTER BURIED IN SKIN. WONDER IF YOU THINK OF ME IM SO TRAGIC A GIRL LOST IN DREAMS FOREVER-I HEARD YOU SAY FOREVER-MY MIND PLAYS GAMES STILL WAITING FOR YOU LIKE GLITTER BURIED IN SKIN. nk.10.02.02
SUBCUTANEOUS. 6.4.99. EVERYTIME I DIE YOUR LIES CONTAIN ALL THE TRUTH FOR THIS GAME SUCKED IN LIKE ALWAYS, I TRY TO DROWN, YOU PULL ME BACK. RELEASE ME IF ANYTHING LIVE MY SINS LAUGH AT ME LOST IN SLEEPS DEATH, CONFESS TO ME. nk.
COULD YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME MORE THAN THIS
LOVE IS NOT WHAT I EXPECTED
Nk. Date tbc! Ages ago though…probably a past life!