realisation 

I've seeked them out.

With my sex.

With my surface.

The landscape of my lust.

Not my love.

Not my soul.

Not my spirit.

Not my worth.

They've all fallen.

And I've been emptied.

Emptied of my desire.

Emptied of my hope.

Emptied of my love.

Emptied of my worth.

I did this.

To my self.

To my soul.

Broke my spirit.

Broke my own heart.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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fractures

silent fractures of faith
of love 
command my veins

this parting
ethereal in its reality
mocks me
devoid of words
devoid of devotion
this break confirms
our noise

this silence tires me
sedates me into a lull of
distrust

5/2/17 & 27/3/17 nk

darkness consumes

it pulls me down
again
influenced by existence
canalised by my past
this darkness consumes
my present, everyday
i breathe, it breathes
with me
i awe at its depth
awaken to a different beat

sometimes, i let her 
take me
for hours i grieve in
this despair
a place that is secondary
it is from this nature
i emerge
renewed.

nk. 17/6/17